Realizing I'm Bigender (Reanna)
Tuesday, 11 February 2025 12:53![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mint_phalanxMore Tumblr copy-pasting. It's like Brian's entry on this but from my perspective.
I don't think I'd ever realize I'm bigender without my headmates. I'd have probably just continued thinking I'm making it up.
It happened in 2022. The feeling may have been triggered by a dream Chaz had in 2021 (link to the dream.) It caused his form to go back and forth between male and female. This happened so much that he made a character to make it stop.
Then, we did research on trans men for a scrapped story idea in February. I noticed a desire to be a man, but when I imagined a full transition, it conflicted with my womanhood. So, I told myself that I was making it up, that it was the research talking.
But the feeling didn't leave.
A desire to be a man while remaining a woman. I didn't know why I was feeling this way. We felt confused. There was so much conflict.
Then, on April 19, Brian was thinking about all of this. He realized something and said, "I think we're bigender." Because I represent the body, it means that I'm bigender. The conflict stopped because the word fit.
Without Brian's realization, I would have still felt confused. Without Brian's realization, I would have continued dismissing my feelings as "making it up."
I don't think I'd ever realize I'm bigender without my headmates. I'd have probably just continued thinking I'm making it up.
It happened in 2022. The feeling may have been triggered by a dream Chaz had in 2021 (link to the dream.) It caused his form to go back and forth between male and female. This happened so much that he made a character to make it stop.
Then, we did research on trans men for a scrapped story idea in February. I noticed a desire to be a man, but when I imagined a full transition, it conflicted with my womanhood. So, I told myself that I was making it up, that it was the research talking.
But the feeling didn't leave.
A desire to be a man while remaining a woman. I didn't know why I was feeling this way. We felt confused. There was so much conflict.
Then, on April 19, Brian was thinking about all of this. He realized something and said, "I think we're bigender." Because I represent the body, it means that I'm bigender. The conflict stopped because the word fit.
Without Brian's realization, I would have still felt confused. Without Brian's realization, I would have continued dismissing my feelings as "making it up."
