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The problem of evil asks how an omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscient, and omnibenevolent God exists in a world of evil and suffering. It implies the two things aren't compatible. Theodicy is a solution to the problem of evil that isn't "God doesn't exist."

I have a theodicy to top all other theodicies. God doesn't stop all evil and suffering because it would bring about the end of the world.

I was inspired by Jewish eschatology. It states that when Elijah returns and restores the Temple, there will be one thousand years of peace before the world ends. I assume that the peace would be the end of all evil.

I admit it doesn't explain why God would intervene in one person's problem but not another's. Small interventions wouldn't count as removing all evil and suffering. Maybe it's a sadistic choice.

I've never made a timeline for any story before. Trade in Traffic has a set timeframe, so I need one for pacing. The plot happens from April to June. The story ends at the beginning of the Denver Buntings' first game of the season.

Making the timeline is a little harder than I thought. I'm glad I took notes on voluntary workouts first. It let me organize the events.

I should share the name of the main character: Mio Mendoza. It took me forever to find one that sounds like a kicker's name.

I started organizing my thoughts on my new story in a green notebook, so I don't hog the system journal. It's nice because I can expand on those thoughts. I can even write down scenes.

Right now, I'm making a list of victims who died. I plan to put it at the end of the book, so they're not just headlines. Then, I'm going to learn how trading actually works, so I don't sound like a confused writer. (I don't want to accidentally portray something that happens in an actual trade as something that happens to trafficked players. Well, besides the exchange of them.)

I haven't done something like this since Spiral. That's the story that made Roxy and the Other People, Kenji, and Adrian. The notebook was green, too.

This entry is from our system journal on 13 September 2025. Reanna has an idea for a thriller. (And by "we," she means "I.") We don't intend to watch Him. Ever.

We might be riding on the tailcoats of Him, but we have a story idea about a football player who gets caught up in a player trafficking ring. For me, the purpose would be to show how dehumanizing trading can seem. We thought of the idea last night, originally as a joke that it would be the sequel to Him. Then, F.M. told me that I could write it.

We already have a few things fleshed out. The trafficking ring involves professional football teams and is run by the General Managers. Players who request to be traded aren't trafficked. [We changed this detail.] Players who don't are. They're transported in cages and are abused. Players trafficked from a rival team are tortured until they conform or die (whichever comes first.) Teammates may be encouraged to join in the abuse because the rival player is "poisoned." I'm considering reading about programming techniques used by abusive cults. (It would specifically be used for rival players.) [I decided to focus on abuse instead.] Players trafficked from non-rival teams go through dangerous hazing rituals.

The main character learns about the trafficking ring when the police question him about a former teammate who died after being traded. When he asks the interviewer why he's being questioned for a death that happened out of state, she says the other investigators suspect the player was also a victim of a trafficking ring. [We decided to specify that it's happening across state lines.]

We also decided the main character would be the first openly asexual football player. He's a kicker because it's easy (for us, anyway. Simple job description.) And he's good at it, too.

The working title is Trade. The project is going to require a lot of knowledge on the business of football. If trading isn't as dehumanizing as I assume, then the story will be for pure entertainment. Details of the trafficking ring may change with the facts.

Reanna: I no longer think I'm riding on the tailcoats of Him, unless you define the tailcoats as "perverting football." (This story isn't even in the same genre!) It also wouldn't be the first thriller involving the sport. My sister made me aware of Black Sunday and Two Minute Warning.

We decided not to let the Trump Administration ruin our day. We showered. We dressed up in long-sleeved crop top and a pair of jeans. We played some Sudoku.

Right now, our mom is making dinner. She and our brother plan to watch fireworks at Sister City Park. We might watch the Rockies game later.

So far, it's been a nice day.

Mood: happy

We finally activated our gift card we got for Christmas. It has $25, which is enough for the purchases we want.

Our first one is personal copies of Carnival and The Murder After. We hope to read them on YouTube then donate them to a library. That would cost $12.45. Our second one is a buy one get two free sale on Domino Dreams. That would be $4.99.

What we have left over would be $7.56, so we can make another in-app purchase!

Mood: happy

Yesterday, we learned that Judge Hurson (a federal judge) blocked Trump's executive order banning gender-affirming care for people under 19 (link to news story.) I'm so happy!

Although we're 23, I wondered if it would affect our access to an endometrial ablation once we come out offline because I didn't know if Medicaid would be intimidated. I'm already worried that they won't cover it because it's not a standard surgery for transitioning. (A diagnosis of Gender Incongruence would make it medically necessary.)

The blocking of this executive order is good news, but no one seems to be reporting it on TV. I wish they would. I watch in the evening, so it's possible they covered it earlier.

Mood: happy

More Tumblr copy-pasting. It's like Brian's entry on this but from my perspective.

I don't think I'd ever realize I'm bigender without my headmates. I'd have probably just continued thinking I'm making it up.

It happened in 2022. The feeling may have been triggered by a dream Chaz had in 2021 (link to the dream.) It caused his form to go back and forth between male and female. This happened so much that he made a character to make it stop.

Then, we did research on trans men for a scrapped story idea in February. I noticed a desire to be a man, but when I imagined a full transition, it conflicted with my womanhood. So, I told myself that I was making it up, that it was the research talking.

But the feeling didn't leave.

A desire to be a man while remaining a woman. I didn't know why I was feeling this way. We felt confused. There was so much conflict.

Then, on April 19, Brian was thinking about all of this. He realized something and said, "I think we're bigender." Because I represent the body, it means that I'm bigender. The conflict stopped because the word fit.

Without Brian's realization, I would have still felt confused. Without Brian's realization, I would have continued dismissing my feelings as "making it up."

We found a plural tag to follow that doesn't have syscourse or sysmeds: plural talk. It's great! There aren't many posts, but we like knowing we can see and use it without fear of syscourse. There's also plural life, which has less posts.

We also learned something new about ourselves: we don't have ADHD. We have executive dysfunction associated with Autism Spectrum Disorder. (The testing psychologist said our medication would still be needed.)

Update: I think we still have ADHD. I think the diagnosis is still there.

We are organizing a new project to work on once SL finishes The Year After. It started with Terrance being inspired by the snow that fell on Election Day. Then, a trip on the Lost Media Wiki and an article on hauntology later, it evolved into a plot involving (non-lost) silent films.

So far, it's about a girl in charge of describing short films to make a dark ride (currently in the works) accessible to the blind. Some of them will be events that happen outside the ride. All the short films we plan to use are in the Public Domain (at least in the United States.) We don't know if it will have actual hauntology.

Our working title for this project is Whatever Terrance is Doing.

I'm not as behind in recreation as I thought. If I do the chapters I didn't finish and get a 52 on the final, I should get a D. In Interpersonal Communication, I'm sure to get a C. I hope it puts us back on Satisfactory Academic Progress if we lost it. Because FAFSA only covers a class once, I'll have to take one in the same category as recreation, so I can make up the grade.

So, we made a Facebook account to promote our books. When setting up our profile, I saw an "other names" section in the about page. I thought, "I'll list my headmates' names here." Then, our account was suspended before I could get to Mary.

Hi, I'm the idiot who didn't know you could be suspended for listing headmates as other names. I'm not mad. I guess it counted as too many. Facebook doesn't know I have headmates. Once the appeal is done, I should just list them in an introduction post (which was my original plan.) Ooh! Facebook should have a headmates section!

Now, I need to upload a selfie. Ironically, I'd prefer showing my ID. It feels less invasive.

UPDATE (16/9/24): Our appeal failed, and our account was disabled. I didn't want to use Facebook, anyway.

Mood: embarrassed

I think our Barnes & Noble Press account was terminated. Last night, I couldn't log in. (Well, SL couldn't log in, but I fronted because I started freaking out.) I went to change the password, but the website said it didn't recognize our email address. I sent an email to support just in case it's being stupid. I can't focus on school right now.

It can't be from joining Google Book's Partner Center because B&N Press is non-exclusive. I used a GG Key instead of an ISBN, so I couldn't have broken that rule. I hate termination without warning!

I think I'm going to find a new platform and re-publish our books. Right now, I'm thinking IngramSpark. It distributes books to Barnes & Noble, anyway. (I deleted my original email and sent a new one requesting our account remain terminated. Our books should no longer be listed in ten days.)

IngramSpark is not not truly free, so I need to find something else. We're moving to Amazon KDP!

It's like the death tarot card. One thing ends, so something new can begin. Someone else suggested the tower card because of the sudden destruction of our account. We rebuild from here. A good thing about rebuilding is we can fix up Carnival and The Murder After. I extended a scene in Carnival and removed the playlist. I also made sure each chapter ended on an even page. Seth will add the first chapter of The Year After to The Murder After as a sneak peek.

(P.S. Bless whoever added the the twelfth edition of Recreation and Leisure in Modern Society to Anna's Archive!)

Mood: stressed

We're taking an interpersonal communication class, so we can learn how to talk to people. The discussions posts require students to sign off with their names, so this should be interesting. I could sign off as "Reanna&" and then put the specific headmate's name in parentheses. Should I share who else might interact with the classwork? Should I relay the messages? Let's see where this goes.

Well, The Plural Positivity World Conference is up to a boring start. We joined way too early, and the early sessions are in French. We don't understand enough French to keep up. I want to spam the chat with songs by The Birthday Massacre, but comments are deleted once you leave a table. This is Chibz first conference, and it isn't that interesting right now.

Update: We aren't as bored anymore. Also, The Stronghold System made a Plural Census for people to fill out. Link to census. (We'll fill it out tomorrow.)

Mood: bored

I said I was abrisexual, but I've been feeling bi lately. It made me uncomfortable using my current label. I guess I was wrong. (It's okay to be wrong.) I'm bi. But I know it's going to change on me.

There are a lot of sexually fluid people who use bisexual as their label; why would my case be any different? Why should I force myself to use a now unfit term just because my attraction might change? I will always be attracted to at least two genders.

In retrospect, it was always bi. Three of my tulpas are bi. Roxy& was bi (except for R.T.P. and Alley.) There was a pattern I ignored because of my fluidity and fear of being seen as inauthentic. (Someone I know is bisexual, so I worried it could be misinterpreted as trying to be just like her.)

Although abrisexual accommodates my fluidity, bisexual feels comfortable. It fits right now. To accommodate my fluidity, I can call myself bi plus. That's better for me. I like it.

Mood: tired and happy

I'm listening to a rock song called "The End of the Roller Coaster" by a singer named Luana Mello. It's her first song, and it's awesome! She has a singing style similar to Amy Lee's.

I think the song is about taking control of one's own life.

Music: Release Radar (Spotify)

I went into denial about being goth because I thought I didn't listen to enough goth music. I just realized I did: Nox Arcana! I love Nox Arcana! I used to listen to it regularly until I grew anxious.

You see, I started growing anxious about dying. I rejected Nox Arcana because I assumed it was triggering anxiety. (Now, I know it was a coincidence.) Then, I thought I didn't listen to any goth music often enough to call myself that.

Nox Arcana, Emilie Autumn, two songs by Creature Feature... I didn't listen to them often enough for me to notice. (I didn't even know they were in the subculture! Why? Because I'm the worst goth ever!) My main fandom (Linkin Park) isn't, and that put me in denial.

I'm beating myself up for not listening to The Birthday Massacre earlier. Yet, I already had a goth artist I liked as a newbie: NOX FREAKING ARCANA! I feel so stupid! I went into denial over nothing! NOTHING! (Okay, I think I feel better.)

Reanna Field, CBS 4 News, Lakewood.

Well, that does it for us. The Late Show with Stephen Colbert is up next. Goodnight everybody.

Mood: embarrassed

It's a leap day! I have no other reason to type besides it being a leap day!

We're also typing our past journal entries for preservation. (I'm not even sure if I'm the one fronting.)

I found a website called BookBub. We can make an author profile, and when it approves our account, we can list our books. Hopefully, this will increase promotion. (There is also ad-making, but that's expensive.)

Update (21 Feb.): We got ourselves a LibraryThing account, so we can list our books. I think it'll be better than BookBub. I'm tired of waiting for our profile to be verified.

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Denial Over Nothing (Reanna)

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